They say life has a way of making you live it. No truer words have ever been spoken. At the peak, at the very top, the height of my fame, something happened. ItтАЩs called life. Just when I thought it couldnтАЩt get any better, it went and got worse. I donтАЩt blame anyone else but myself. Too busy ballinтАЩ outta control to notice what was going on with the real world. I thought I was slick, thought I could outsmart life, but the Good Lord looked me in the eye and like Biggie, said, тАЬYou dead wrong.тАЭ By the time my high came down, I was out of it, left and right. The queen had to give up her crown and go back to stomping grapes with the rest of the kingdom. IтАЩve come a long way in the past few months. No doubt IтАЩve still got a long way to go. IтАЩll never get over it but I can try and move on. IтАЩve buried my demons and made peace with my past. If anyone didnтАЩt like it, they can kiss my honey-brown ass. IтАЩm not proud of any of it. But I did what I had to do to survive. I heard a funny statement the other day. Something like, тАЬItтАЩs a cold world out there, and if you ainтАЩt under the umbrella, you gonna get rained on.тАЭ Lord knows I was soakinтАЩ wet.