How can you have a future if you canтАЩt accept your past?
Mel Hannigan doesnтАЩt have it easy. Mourning the death of her firework of a brother, facing the loss of three friendships that used to mean everything to her and struggling to deal with a condition that even her closest friends donтАЩt know about. To protect herself and everyone else, Mel tries to lock away her heart, to live quietly without pain тАУ but also without hope.
Until the plight of an old friend, and meeting someone new, shows her that the risk is worth taking, that opening up to life тАУ and who you really are тАУ is what can make everything glorious... And that maybe Mel can discover a tragic kind of wonderful of her very own.
A beautiful, captivating story about living with mental illness, and loving тАУ even with a broken heart.
Novelist Eric Lindstrom is a veteran of the interactive entertainment industry. His writing has been nominated for a BAFTA award for Best Videogame Screenplay in Tomb Raider: Legend, and a WGA award for Best Writing in a Videogame for Tomb Raider: Underworld. Not If I See You First was his debut novel.