I will forever punish myself for the past.
The reminder of my failures slaps me in the face every single day.
Happiness is something IтАЩll never know again.
My life is orderly and organized.
Emotions are kept compartmentalized, or else functioning is impossible.
ItтАЩs a self-imposed prison, but itтАЩs necessary.
I deserve this life.
Love, though, ignores all rules.
Throws a messy, irritating, beautiful woman right in my face.
Taunts me with the hope that maybe I could bask in one sliver of her blinding light.
I canтАЩt ignore her even though I try.
This canтАЩt happen between us.
I donтАЩt deserve her.
She needs someone who can love her fully and without restrictions.
IтАЩm not that man.
Love doesnтАЩt care.
Love changes everything.
And the timing couldnтАЩt be worse.